Finally it is happening.
For so long I have looked at those who walk in the supernatural, who move in signs and wonders, who prophecy so freely and my heart yearned to be like them. I know what my God says in his word. "Signs and wonders will follow those who believe..." and "You will do greater things than these" and " their words were accompanied by signs and wonders and miracles". This type of Christianity... I want it.
I have struggled for many years. Praying without apparent healing taking place, believing with great faith but seeing an outcome very different than expected.
Yet now, now I see... My eyes are starting to see the need of a transformed mind... I realize more and more how my mind and heart thought they believed, yet when I allow the Spirit to search me AND reveal to me my the deep things of my heart I realize that what I said I believed or what I thought I believed was not so.
What started this process...
My struggles with the lack of what normal Christianity should look like according to what Jesus spoke and what we see in the disciples and the first church; walking in the resurrection power of Jesus Christ, brought me to a place of desperation; God, if you do not confirm your words with a demonstration of Your power, than I am not interested in Christianity. I refuse to be one who speaks of the healing power of Christ yet never demonstrates it. I refuse to be like a vacuum sales man at someones door; throwing some dirt on the carpet, speaking of the great suction power of the vacuum, convincing people to buy it, but not demonstrating the machine.
It is interesting to me that the "result" of my desperation is so different than I imagined. Some of you that know me might wonder; lack of faith... you? Yes my friends, I realize more and more that I understand God's ways in such limitation. That so much of my faith is based on what I know to be possible. My faith has been limited to my personal or other peoples faith experiences, not to the impossible.
1 Corinthians 2:9 says it so well;" no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind conceived what God has in store for those who love him. But he has revealed it to us by His Spirit."
You see, if I can conceive it it is still to small. If it is within my means.. it is still to small... But when it comes from the Spirit, it will be big! I believe that I have looked at life from Astrid perspective for long enough. Now it is time for Kingdom perspective to be in my mind!
I am tired of vacuum sales Christianity and want to move on to a life where the life of Christ will be reflected through me to the fullest measure possible!
What this means, how it works out, how it happens...
I don't fully know, but I am willing to share with you over the next months what happens. Keep checking this blog as I will share with you my journal entries, my prayers and experiences.
For so long I have looked at those who walk in the supernatural, who move in signs and wonders, who prophecy so freely and my heart yearned to be like them. I know what my God says in his word. "Signs and wonders will follow those who believe..." and "You will do greater things than these" and " their words were accompanied by signs and wonders and miracles". This type of Christianity... I want it.
I have struggled for many years. Praying without apparent healing taking place, believing with great faith but seeing an outcome very different than expected.
Yet now, now I see... My eyes are starting to see the need of a transformed mind... I realize more and more how my mind and heart thought they believed, yet when I allow the Spirit to search me AND reveal to me my the deep things of my heart I realize that what I said I believed or what I thought I believed was not so.
What started this process...
My struggles with the lack of what normal Christianity should look like according to what Jesus spoke and what we see in the disciples and the first church; walking in the resurrection power of Jesus Christ, brought me to a place of desperation; God, if you do not confirm your words with a demonstration of Your power, than I am not interested in Christianity. I refuse to be one who speaks of the healing power of Christ yet never demonstrates it. I refuse to be like a vacuum sales man at someones door; throwing some dirt on the carpet, speaking of the great suction power of the vacuum, convincing people to buy it, but not demonstrating the machine.
It is interesting to me that the "result" of my desperation is so different than I imagined. Some of you that know me might wonder; lack of faith... you? Yes my friends, I realize more and more that I understand God's ways in such limitation. That so much of my faith is based on what I know to be possible. My faith has been limited to my personal or other peoples faith experiences, not to the impossible.
1 Corinthians 2:9 says it so well;" no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind conceived what God has in store for those who love him. But he has revealed it to us by His Spirit."
You see, if I can conceive it it is still to small. If it is within my means.. it is still to small... But when it comes from the Spirit, it will be big! I believe that I have looked at life from Astrid perspective for long enough. Now it is time for Kingdom perspective to be in my mind!
I am tired of vacuum sales Christianity and want to move on to a life where the life of Christ will be reflected through me to the fullest measure possible!
What this means, how it works out, how it happens...
I don't fully know, but I am willing to share with you over the next months what happens. Keep checking this blog as I will share with you my journal entries, my prayers and experiences.
Astrid
